realizing this morning
i am unsatisfied
with my life
as if this is a surprise.
of course i am,
and for good reason.
many good reasons,
and not just
wah wah wah
poor pitiful me.
i think today
i was just pay attention.
it’s exhausting
to carry that weight
every damn day.
if today
i am willing
to be open
to the many difficulties
pressing down on me,
maybe today
is a chance
to see
an opportunity
i have missed
on other days
lived with my eyes
closed tight
in fear
of the disaster
i tell myself
is inevitable
even though
the sky is clear
and it’s only
my mind
where the storms
are brewing.